Sunday, February 28, 2010

25 Months!!

This little guy is 25 months today!
I should probably stop with the monthly birthday updates, but I can't help myself. He changes so much every single month!
I have said it a couple of times this month, but I am still in a little bit of shock at how much energy he has. We are seeing a totally different side of Owen that we never knew existed. Before he turned two, there would be days of never getting out of bed, constant puking, and major irritability. Ever since I switched his diet to real food, I'm lucky if I can get him to sit still for a few minutes while I feed him. It's a total change and we are thrilled!!
With all his new energy, he has been making HUGE improvements in his gross motor skills. He started crawling a few weeks ago, but only takes about five crawls forward before he converts back to butt-scooting. Then, just a few days ago, he start pulling to a stand! He thinks he's pretty cool and loves to stand and sit, stand and sit. Just don't expect him to do it on queue or when the video camera is rolling. I have no idea why he stands in 2nd position either?
His speech has come a LONG way and he repeats just about anything he hears. The kids teach him some pretty interesting words... next time you see him, ask him to say "Do you want a piece of me?" Hilarious!
Overall, this little guy is growing up too fast. He is getting stronger and proving to the docs that his heart will hold out as long as he wants it too! He's gaining back his lost weight and his O2 sats have been lingering around 78 on 1/2 liter of oxygen. I am just in awe at his progress and we are so happy!!

ps... those are my knee pads for hip hop on his arms.. in case you were wondering.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Ice Skating 101

The girls started Ice Skating today and LOVED it!!! I was pretty sure one of them would break something, but they survived. Ice skating in the desert isn't super popular, but since we have a rink down the street from our house, we figured.. why not??
Owen had a great time, as he does in every situation, and stood up in his stroller to yell "Go BOBO, Go GIGI". What a ham! Both girls took some hard falls, but got right back up and kept working on it. They both had permanent smiles on their faces... either they were really happy to be there, or they were frozen.
They learned to skate forward, stop, swivel backwards and jump on the ice. I was amazed at how much they learned in just the first 1/2 hour class.
Owen looks totally into it! I can't wait to get him out on the ice. I guess he should learn to walk first.
We ran into some friends from our past and it was great to catch up. Our kids have grown up SO much in the past few years. I can't wait to visit with them on Thursdays now. Small world.


Kamryn loved her first skating lesson and is already planning on sparkly pink skates! The blue rentals ones were just "not very good looking".

Someone...

I am not naming names... but someone did something spectacular today!! This someone is about 35" tall, 27 pounds and as cute as a button. After months and months of attempting this something spectacular, he finally did it!! Today... in front of his therapists.. he did it!!

He pulled up to a stand!!!!

I have no photo proof of this amazing feat because he pulled up to a stand on me while I was resting comfortable on the floor. I will get it on video... along with his crawling and totally groovy beatboxing skills. If you've seen Biz on Yo Gabba Gabba, you know what I'm talking about.

I'm so proud of this little someone!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Feeling Great

I cannot resist this cute little face!

I love hanging out with him all day long. The last few weeks have been wonderful! Owen has been full of energy that I have never seen out of him. He's up and playing the majority of the day, and takes a two hour nap in the afternoon.
He's trying to pull to stand and crawls from time to time. He's not eating much orally, but the trade off is less puke, so we'll take it! His new diet of real foods vs. formula has proven itself with amazing results!!
Have I mentioned I love this face!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Hope Kids

I wanted to share with you all about Hope Kids! I just found out about this amazing organization from reading our Utah heart friend's blogs (thanks Amy). I googled Hope Kids online and found out that they have a Phoenix Chapter! How did I not hear about this sooner??

"HopeKids provides ongoing events & activities and a powerful, unique support community for children with cancer and other life-threatening medical conditions. We surround these remarkable children and their families with the message that hope can be a powerful medicine." quote from hopekids.org homepage

I registered Owen as a Hope Kid and got a phone call pretty quickly afterwards. I had a great phone conversation with one of the directors and the next day we received a package with our Hope Kids tshirts (for the family)!

There are events all over the valley that you can sign up for, free of charge, to take your terminally ill child and/or siblings to. It's such a great organization and I hope that if you live in one of the chapters... Phoenix, SLC, Dallas/Fort Worth or Minneapolis.. that you will sign your kiddo up!

Hopekids.org

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Ethan's Run

Saturday morning, we woke up early and headed out to Ethan's Run. Ethan had HLHS, just like Owen, and fought a tough battle for six months. He passed away six months ago. His family created Ethan's Run as a way to raise money for the Congenital Heart Center at St Joes. Heidi (Ethan's Mom) did an amazing job with the event!! There was a 10k race and a 1 mile fun run. I almost convinced myself to do the 1mile fun run, and never even thought about the 10k. I'm such a wimp. Next year, I'll try the 10k, maybe. I'm so proud of all of you that ran the long race!! It was a cold and windy day in the desert, but the rain stayed away until the event was over! Grandpa Todd and Grandma Monica met us at the event that happened to be in their neighborhood, and they just so happened to have kites in their car too!
While the runners were out running, the bounce houses were empty. Carson took Owen down the slide and he totally hated it.
He preferred to sit and watch the big kids bounce instead...
Kamryn and Gigi had a GREAT time!! Aren't the shirts awesome!! I loved them.
The best part of the event was meeting all of the other heart moms!! I have followed their blogs, prayed for their babies and feel a connection with them, even having never met them. It was so fun to finally meet!! Thanks to Caryn for taking the following pictures. My camera was off on a table somewhere.

Heidi (mom to the beautiful Angel Jersey), Liz (mom to Angel Jake).. Liz started a program called Jakey's Blankets and she makes these super soft blankets for the really sick kiddos in the heart unit at St Joes. She got Owen this super adorable dalmation/red blankey and he LOVES it!! Thank you so much! Molly (mom to Mark), who is just the cutest little guy!! Grandma Monica is holding Owen.
This is Braden, he was born with several heart defects and had a full repair done at Stanford. He looks so amazing at 7 years old!! His mom Caryn has been a huge support for me, especially when we were trying to choose a transplant hospital.
I have talked with Avery (Bela's Mom) several times. She's the one that motivated me to start Owen on the blended diet. It worked!! Thank you so much Avery!!
This is Avery's husband, Tanner, meeting Owen for the first time. It also makes me so grateful to hear other's say that they are SO happy to meet Owen when they've prayed for him so often!!
This is Andrea (Kyson's mom), Heidi (Ethan's mom and the one that made Ethan's Run happen), Me and Caryn I don't have pictures, but I saw Keisa (Angel Eden's mom) as she won the 10k for females in her age bracket... way to go!!! Shelley (Ellery's Mom) brought us a heart necklace charm with a bandaid over the heart. Thank you so much, I can't wait to wear it! I feel like I'm missing someone. We had such a great time at the event and can't wait to go next year!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Incredible Mister Owen

Owen is such a happy, funny, spirited little guy.

He is sweet natured, relaxed, loving and oh so cuddly!

He can also be spunky, determined, stubborn and knows his physical limits.
Sometimes he is bashful. Most of the time, he is outgoing, social and loves to meet new people! His big smile and bright blue eyes light up a room!
We love you so much Mister Owen!!!
Now it's time for an update!!

Owen is doing so great! I have been giving him a diet of only "real" blended foods, through his Gtube. He has SO much more energy and the puking is down to only once a day. It still takes me about an hour to give him his full meals, so he is still not on a perfect schedule, but that's all his little tummy will handle. He hasn't been interested in eating orally, but I don't blame him. With 1400 calories a day and only getting little 2 hour breaks between meals, I can't imagine he is ever hungry enough to want to eat orally. If he were a little more stable, cardiac wise, I would just take a few days off tube feeds and try to get him to eat orally. But, we just don't have that option. He lost a pound in the last 3 weeks, but I added another 200 calories to his daily diet, and he is quickly gaining those back!!


Owen's vocabulary is exploding! He can tell us what he wants, says "plzzzz" and "Da doo". I love to ask him where something is and he says "Ni, Dno Nooooo" (I don't know). He asks for a "Baf" (bath), "Ea" (eat), "Drin" (drink), "Moome" (movie), "Boc" (blocks), and the list goes on and on. He continues with speech therapy once a week and we're working on ending his words.


Thanks to the new energy he feels, he has offically started CRAWLING!! I can't believe it!! We have been working on this since he was 8 months old. All of a sudden, he started getting on his hands and knees. He still exhausts after six crawls, but he's trying. We're working on going up the stairs, but he's petrified to come down. He still tries SO hard to pull to a stand. Crawling will help him build up his upper body strength so pulling up will be easier. I hope. He watches other little kids walk and you can just see how badly he wants to be able to do it too. He'll get there.


The weather is perfect in Phoenix this time of year. Owen loves to swing at the park everyday, go for walks and always asks for his window to be open in the car. Pretty soon it'll be 115 degrees and we'll be living in the pool. I love living in the desert!


It's so nice to have a post about how wonderful Owen is doing. He is still in heart failure, takes 7 medications 3x a day, gets blended foods 5x a day, has therapy 3x a week (sometimes 4) and has multiple doctors appointments every month. Despite all we do on a daily basis, I am constantly amazed at how normal our lives seem these days.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Battling Infertility and Getting Healthy

I wrote a post a while ago about my long battle with infertility. When I was a little girl, I always imagined having a bunch of kids all really close in age. When I was just 19, I got pregnant with Kamryn. It was shocking and exciting all at the same time!

Our little girl was so perfect in every way! She made me a mother and I wanted to desperatly make her a sibling. We started trying for baby #2 when Kamryn was only 6 months old.

After four years of trying... I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycictic ovarian syndrome). I changed my diet and gave up all carbs. I took my Glucophage (insulin resistance medicine) twice a day, as well as progesterone to keep my cycles coming.

One day... 8 years after conceiving Kamryn... I conceived again. Finally. I was able to tell Kamryn that she would be getting the sibling she had always begged for. The look on her face was priceless!

Here we are.. 2 1/2 years later. I haven't cycled in eight months. Yesterday was my first visit with my new obgyn. He wanted to do a quick ultrasound to make sure that my uterine lining wasn't too thick and take a look at my ovaries. This is what showed up...

Those little black circles are not eggs, nor babies... they are cycts all over my ovaries. I definetly have PCOS, no questions about it. Dr B. started throwing out the symptoms to me and he was right on. Overweight, acne (at 30!), splotchy skin... sounds sexy doesn't it? At least I have avoided the excessive hair growth. The chances of me getting pregnant right now are SO slim. While I am not ready to have another baby until Owen is finished with transplant, I hate that I don't have that option!

The only thing that I can do to battle this is to eat a healthy diet of mostly proteins, exercise and take care of ME. I am on a mission to get healthy! I will battle my infertility and I will win. I have done it before, so I know I can do it again! I picked up my Progesterone and Glucophage at the pharmacy today. Then I started to cry. It brought back so many feelings of frustration trying to get pregnant, feelings of failure at each negative pregnancy test, feelings of saddness that I couldn't give my husband and daughter another baby. Then I got over it. I am SO lucky to have a great husband, a perfect daughter and an amazing son.

I will take my progesterone on days 10-24 of my cycle. I will take my Glucophage every morning and before bed. I will go to the gym at 8:30 after the kids are in bed. I will watch everything I put in my mouth and enjoy all the protein packed foods that I love. I am going to battle my infertility and I will get healthy. I am going to do it for me, so that when/if we are ready to try for baby #3, I can say that I did everything I could.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

A Little Valentine Update

Finally... I have a chance to sit down and update the blog. I am happy to say that we are getting settled into our new home. I am still digging around in boxes trying to find sheets and blenders, but with just a few boxes at a time, it'll get unpacked. Now it's time to catch up...

A few weeks ago, Kamryn went to her school's Valentine Dance. Thanks to Auntie Sussy and Uncle Justin for taking you along with your cousins, we were slammed with moving.
Kamryn loves her new twirly skirts! She has two of them and I can't get her to wear anything else. It's just another sweet reminder that she's still our little girl.
Kamryn continues to do great in school. She loves to hang out with her closest friends and cousins. She is havin a great time in Hip Hop and starts ice skating next week. She is so generous, loving, cuddly, kind hearted, intelligent and funny! Love you baby girl!
On Valentine's Day, we had my family over to celebrate Gigi's 7th Birthday! She blew out her candle and made a wish...
And then Owen wanted a turn. So we relit the candle and did it all over again. What a goofball!
Happy Birthday Giselle! You are such a sweetheart and I hope your birthday was just perfect.
Well... that was our weekend. Owen went to his GI doctor today and I was surprised at his support. He is on board if I want to continue blending foods for Owen and prescribed him some Compleat formula to use as a supplement. Owen is still puking a little bit and we're trying to avoid doing an endoscopy (where they put him down and put a huge camera down his throat into his stomach).
Our biggest concern is that he is losing weight. I have been giving him at least 1300 calories a day with tons of fats and protiens. I think I need to up his carb intake, so I started adding lots of oats and quinoa to his foods today. We both agreed that he needs to gain weight before we get to Stanford in May or else they're going to keep him again... and we don't want that. :)


Oh.. and I have a great post coming up!! Owen finally hit another milestone.....

Friday, February 12, 2010

Owen's Button

We are exhausted, but almost done with moving. I have a few more trips to the old house for "junk" and a quick clean up, then I will hand over the keys. We're almost done... almost.

Owen's button was over a year old and since he has changed so much, I thought it was time to create a new button for him. The code is on the right sidebar if you want to update to the new "big boy" button.
Now for a quick update, cause I need to get back to moving. Owen is still on the blended diet and is doing well. I will weigh him tomorrow and am anxious to see if he's maintained his weight gain. We've had several pukes, but nothing like it was with the formula. I contacted our GI nurse pracitioner over two weeks ago and emailed her a copy of Owen's blended foods diary. I have called 5 times since then, with no return call. It's great to know that we have such a supportive GI team. Ahem.

I did speak with Owen's nutrtionist from Stanford and she is on board. Anything to keep his puking to a minimum. The only thing she really told me is that he needs 1300 cals and at least 27 oz of fluids a day. I'm totally guessing on fats, vitamins, calcium and such.

Now...If only I would eat what I feed Owen. Instead, I ate a chocolate cream cheese croissant from Paradise Bakery for breakfast today, which I'm pretty sure was 1300 calories all by itself!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Our New Home

We are exhausted. Our feet ache. Our bodies worn. Digging through boxes looking for soap and sheets. We did it. We officially moved into our new home today.

This is the first time we have ever rented and we are so happy! Our landlord and broker are the sweetest people. The owner even made cute little curtains for the master bathroom that we might like. The house is almost brand new with two toned paint, huge bedrooms and a master closet that means business.

We are happy.

Tomorrow we will sign the closing docs on our old home. The place we called home for the past 4 years. We will miss our home, but are ready to move on to the next step.

There is still so much to do. Unpacking, getting all the oddball stuff out of the old house that never found it's way to a box, and doing a scrubdown of the old place. We know the new owner of our home and hope that she makes as many memories in her home as we did.

It's almost midnight and it's time for bed. I still can't believe we are moved.

Monday, February 8, 2010

Congenital Heart Defect Awareness Week

It's Congenital Heart Defect Awareness Week!!

Before the ultrasound when Owen was diagnosed with HLHS, we had never heard of a CHD. You always know that something could be wrong with your unborn baby, but how many people imagine that their baby could have a broken heart?? It's terrifying.
Nearly one in every 125 babies is born with a CHD. It is the #1 birth defect in America. This year alone, close to 40,000 babies will be born with a CHD. Nearly twice as many children die from Congenital Heart Defects in the United States each year as from all forms of childhood cancers combined.Though research is ongoing, at least 35 defects have now been identified.
4-8% born with CHD have Hypoplastic Left Heart Syndrome --> Owen's Defect
4-10% born with CHD have Atrioventricular Septal Defects
8-11% born with CHD have Coarctation of the Aorta
9-14% born with CHD have Tetralogy of Fallot
10-11% born with CHD have Transposition of the Great Arteries
14-16% born with CHD have Ventricular Septal Defects
Owen is our hero and a CHD survivor.
His battle is not even close to over. He will require a transplant in the near future (next year or sooner). He will forever be on medication to help prevent rejection of his new heart. He will most likely need multiple heart transplants in his lifetime. Please consider becoming an organ donor and spread awareness!!
What is a CHD???

You passed me in the shopping mall
(You read my faded tee).
You tapped me on the shoulder,
Then asked, "What's a CHD?"
I could quote terminology,
There's stats that I could give.
But I would rather share with you
A mother's perspective.

What is it like to have a child with a CHD?
It's Lasix, Aspirin, Captopril
It's wondering...Lord what's your will?
It's monitors and oxygen tanks
It's a constant reminder to always give thanks.
It's feeding tubes, calories, needed weight gain
It's the drama of eating...and yes it's insane!
It's the first time I held him, I'd waited so long,
It's knowing that I need to help him grow strong.
It's making a hospital home for awhile
It's seeing my reward in every smile.
It's checking his sats as the feeding pump's beeping
It's knowing that there is just no time for sleeping.
It's caths, x-rays and boo boos to kiss
It's normalacy I sometimes miss.
It's asking do his nails look blue?
It's cringing inside at what he's been through.
It's dozens of call to his pediatrician
She knows me by name, I'm a mom on a mission.
It's winter's homebound and hand sanitizer
It's knowing this journey has made me much wiser.
It's watching him sleeping his breathing is steady.
It's surgery day and I'll never be ready.
It's handing him over, I'm still not prepared,
It's knowing that his heart must be repaired.
It's waiting for news on that long stressful day,
It's praying...it's hoping...that he'll be okay.
It's the wonderful friends with whom I've connected,
It's the bond that we share, it was so unexpected.
It's that long faded scar down my child's small chest,
It's touching it gently and knowing we're blessed.
It's watching him chasing a small butterfly,
It's the moment I realized I've stopped asking why.
It's the snowflakes that fall on a cold winter's day,
They remind me of those who aren't with us today.
It's a brave little boy who loves Thomas the train,
Or a special heart bear or a frog in the rain.
It's the need to remember we're all in this plight,
It's their lives that remind us we still need to fight!
It's in pushing ahead amidst every sorrow,
It is finding the strength to have hope for tomorrow.
And no, we'll never be the same. It's changed our family,
This is what we face each day.

This is...a CHD.

**Written by Stephanie Husted (fellow heart mom)

Saturday, February 6, 2010

House Hunting

The house hunt continues....

Yes! We found a house. A brand new house. A house that is managed by a property management company that is not nice. A house that when we took time to go through, has zero storage space. A house that we are still legally able to get out of and has now been relisted. A house that we now have to fight to get our deposit refunded on.

So now we have 4 days to find a new home, move into the home, and close on our existing mortgage.

It's all going to work out. It always does. And when all else fails, we can move in with our parents.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Two Years Ago....

I just realized that today is February 4th. Two years ago, we were getting ready to say goodbye to our baby boy, not knowing if we would ever see him again. My heart was aching, my stomach was in knots, and I was in tears. This was the last picture we took before sending him off to the OR for his first open heart surgery. He was only 7 days old and so very sick with his broken heart.
Dr Pearl finished his surgery 7 hours after he began. At 11pm, we finally got to see our little guy. His chest was left open to allow for swelling and remained that way for several days.
This was his equipment that kept him alive. He looks so tiny in his hospital bed. It's amazing that he is now a big two year old!!
Even with all the oxygen and feeding tubes, heart failure and exhaustion... he is doing so well! He's gaining weight, staying healthy, and proving to the doctors that he can push off transplant a little longer.

We are so blessed that Owen has come so far. Unfortunatly, many of our little heart friends have not made it to their 2nd birthdays, or even their 1st. in order to raise awareness and money for the heart center here, we will be participating in Ethan's Run on Feb 20th. Ethan lost his battle with HLHS at just 6 months old. If you live in the Phoenix area, we hope you will register and join in the fun. We will be doing the fun run because I am too much of a slacker to try the 10k. Hope to see you there!! :)

Moving...

We are finally MOVING!!! This weekend. We just found a home yesterday and we are ready to get this done. Our home is brand new and never lived in, which is rare for a rental property, but perfect for a little guy that scoots around on his bum all day. It's less than a mile from our current home, so the move should go pretty quickly. The only negative about our new home is that the architect didn't create any storage spaces.. no linen closets, no coat closets, no under the stairs closets... I'm going to have to get creative!!

Our house looks a lot like this right now...
I better get to it!! There is so much to do and Owen just drifted off into dreamland. I'll post pictures as soon as we're done.