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And on the flip side...
How cute are those?? I love them!!
Anyway...
I went to the OB to talk about my lack of ovulation, infertility and PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). There is no big surprise that I have had issues conceiving in the past. I struggled with the pain, sadness, frustration and fear that Kamryn would never be a big sister. I took what seems like hundreds of pregnancy tests during my 20's .. all with the same negative result. Each and every one came with a little more disappointment than the one before.
Kamryn was conceived so easily.. accidentally on purpose... she made me a young mom and I wouldn't change a thing! I love that I had so much alone time with her.. 8 years to be exact! She got an early crash course in reproduction over the years when she continually asked why she couldn't have a brother or sister. We explained the science behind it .. but most importantly.. we explained that there is a bigger plan for all of us. If only we knew then what blessings were in store for all of us!
Being in our early 20's we opted not to use fertility drugs. I tried Clomid here and there, but it never worked. PCOS is nasty with even uglier side effects...acne, splotchy skin, extra hair (not in the best places), weight gain, ovarian cysts, insulin resistance and irregular periods.
Owen was conceived naturally. You could call it luck.. I like to think of it as part of a bigger plan. Owen came along with his special heart and has changed us all. He taught us to take a step back and to appreciate life in a different way.
As Owen becomes more stable and we are closer to his 4th open heart surgery.. I am thinking it's time to prepare for the idea of baby number 3. Eeekkk.. I get excited at just the thought of it!
This is where the OB appointment becomes important. I need to start getting my body prepared. I have really irregular cycles and zero ovulation.. we're talking 3 cycles in 2010... yikes! In order to regulate my cycles .. I started on Progesterone yesterday.
For 10 days, I take progesterone pills. All the while I continue taking 500mg of Metformin, 2 times a day. I should have a period on day 14 or so, and then I start the countdown from day to day 24. Then I start the cycle over again. Confusing? Yes. Does it feel like a science experiment with my body? Totally.
I will continue to do this cycle for six months with the hopes to regulate myself. Alongside that, I will continue losing weight .. eating healthy and exercising. We are not going to try to conceive until after Owen is stable, post Fontan. September? October? We will (hopefully) start trying to conceive.
I talked to the doctor about starting with clomid ... low dose... with an increase each month that I don't conceive. After about six months of that, if not successful, we will discuss our options.
So there you have it. I am infertile. I trust that things will work out the way they are supposed to. We have been so blessed with two amazing kiddos and for that we are so spoiled.
Enough fertility talk..
This weekend we have zero plans. I am excited to relax, catch up on housework, take the kids swimming, and spend time with my favorite three people.
We arrived at the ranch at 9:30 when the event started and the kids had the bouncey all to themselves. Owen was in heaven. The rest of the day he asked to "play bounce!" He didn't really bounce, rather just tackled Kamryn.
Kamryn attempted the rock climbing wall again this year.. this is as far as she got. She is just not a climber as she hates heights.
She has other talents.. and rocked the paintball gun!! Owen shot his gun once and said "all done!"
The kids wouldn't climb in the old rickety jail by themselves.
I forced my family, kicking and screaming, to get western pictures. It wasn't so bad as soon as my kids realized there were toy guns. We told Owen to be serious.. the boy can make a mean ol' face!
There was a craft table and the kids wanted to make puppets.. Owen lost his eyeballs and stick within minutes.. but they had fun.
They had a great cookout with burgers, dogs and all the fixins'. My kids love that they can go up to the bar and ask for a soda.. or pick out their own chips, jerky, or trail mix. While I was chatting with other heart families, Carson and Kamryn tried their hand at archery. We met up in line for the Hummer tours.. which was so much fun!! (Kam has this thing where she can't be serious in a photo .. she likes to pull faces and be goofy. )
We sat in the very back of the Hummer again this year and the kids love getting thrown all around back there. We went through the muddy lake, up rocky inclines and there were times I was sure I'd lose my lunch. Good times!
Owen was his silly self all day.. and I have about 40 pictures of him making different faces... like this one.
We had a great time and Hopekids really put on a fantastic event again this year! We hope to be back next year. Here is a link to our visit to the ranch last year!