Infertility and Such

This week has been crazy! Kamryn had AIMS testing all week at school. I was nice enough to let her ditch school today because it was "kite day"... where is the education in that? The three of us went to see Diary of a Wimpy Kid 2.. hilarious!

I had a root canal this week that was kinda brutal. I then had an OB appointment to discuss my lack of fertility. More on that in a second.

Before the OB appointment, Owen and I headed downtown to visit Kyson at Phoenix Children's. He had his Fontan on the 7th and is having a rough recovery. Owen broke down in sympathy tears when the nurses came in to split Kyson's chest tubes. Keep our sweet friend in your prayers as he continues to recover.

Last night I went to craft night at our church and made these...

And on the flip side... How cute are those?? I love them!!

Anyway...

I went to the OB to talk about my lack of ovulation, infertility and PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). There is no big surprise that I have had issues conceiving in the past. I struggled with the pain, sadness, frustration and fear that Kamryn would never be a big sister. I took what seems like hundreds of pregnancy tests during my 20's .. all with the same negative result. Each and every one came with a little more disappointment than the one before.

Kamryn was conceived so easily.. accidentally on purpose... she made me a young mom and I wouldn't change a thing! I love that I had so much alone time with her.. 8 years to be exact! She got an early crash course in reproduction over the years when she continually asked why she couldn't have a brother or sister. We explained the science behind it .. but most importantly.. we explained that there is a bigger plan for all of us. If only we knew then what blessings were in store for all of us!

Being in our early 20's we opted not to use fertility drugs. I tried Clomid here and there, but it never worked. PCOS is nasty with even uglier side effects...acne, splotchy skin, extra hair (not in the best places), weight gain, ovarian cysts, insulin resistance and irregular periods.

Owen was conceived naturally. You could call it luck.. I like to think of it as part of a bigger plan. Owen came along with his special heart and has changed us all. He taught us to take a step back and to appreciate life in a different way.

As Owen becomes more stable and we are closer to his 4th open heart surgery.. I am thinking it's time to prepare for the idea of baby number 3. Eeekkk.. I get excited at just the thought of it!

This is where the OB appointment becomes important. I need to start getting my body prepared. I have really irregular cycles and zero ovulation.. we're talking 3 cycles in 2010... yikes! In order to regulate my cycles .. I started on Progesterone yesterday.

For 10 days, I take progesterone pills. All the while I continue taking 500mg of Metformin, 2 times a day. I should have a period on day 14 or so, and then I start the countdown from day to day 24. Then I start the cycle over again. Confusing? Yes. Does it feel like a science experiment with my body? Totally.

I will continue to do this cycle for six months with the hopes to regulate myself. Alongside that, I will continue losing weight .. eating healthy and exercising. We are not going to try to conceive until after Owen is stable, post Fontan. September? October? We will (hopefully) start trying to conceive.

I talked to the doctor about starting with clomid ... low dose... with an increase each month that I don't conceive. After about six months of that, if not successful, we will discuss our options.

So there you have it. I am infertile. I trust that things will work out the way they are supposed to. We have been so blessed with two amazing kiddos and for that we are so spoiled.

Enough fertility talk..

This weekend we have zero plans. I am excited to relax, catch up on housework, take the kids swimming, and spend time with my favorite three people.