Normal

Normal.

That's how I feel lately. For the first time since Owen was born, I feel like life is normal. I can't even begin to describe how great he's been feeling. He's up on his feet more, getting into trouble, talking up a storm, interested in eating, and we are doing more than ever.

The weather is finally perfect and we have been spending the majority of our days outdoors. We took advantage of having the entire family home today and went to see Megamind. Owen laughed at all the previews while chowing down on popcorn, licorice and soda. Kamryn was thrilled to see her teacher and principal in the same theater. It was a beautiful day.

Owen's sats have been stable, except for the 32% he pulled last night when he was wrestling us on the bed and turned the bluest I have ever seen him. As soon as I told him to chill out, his sats popped right back up into the 70's!

Everything is going so well it's almost too good to be true. Our life has become so normal. I catch myself planning for Owen's future... preschool, baseball, piano... instead of being so worried that he's not going to wake up tomorrow. I have changed so much from those first days when I didn't know if we'd ever bring him home. I refused to buy him clothes, diapers, a car seat. I was so scared. Now, I can't stop talking about his future.

I am still scared. I think I just feel a little security in his stability right now. It doesn't stop me from putting my hand on his chest every single night, just to make sure his heart is still beating..

I know that our normal may only be temporary as Owen will definitely be needing more surgeries soon. I am going to choose to live in the moment, rather than fear the unknown at this point. Time has been so precious lately. We are so blessed.